Monday, January 11, 2010

I feel like I am living in a bad MTV reality show...

Hey internet,

My apologies for not blogging or vlogging or anything in the last few days. Now everything is fine and I am back to my regular internet-ing once again. So, my family has yet to make my flight arrangements, but I have been told that tonight all of the plans will be set in stone. It looks like I will be flying down on either Monday or Tuesday...I am not sure if I will have a family member with me or not...I suppose we will see tonight.

Moving on to the title of this most of you may or may not know, I am a vlogger. I live the vlogger life, this means that my life from October 2009-August 2010 has been and will be documented. My vlogging experience is very different from the experience of some of the other Disney vloggers (like Ryan O, John Henselmeier, or Will). These vloggers film episodes with a product (finished episode) in mind. If you have seen my show, then you know that I generally always have a camera with me and film even the not so fun and glamorous moments of my experience. This is both a blessing and a curse. The negatives with this is that I do not have a clear distinction between my vlogging life/persona and my actual persona. What you see is what you my private life isn't really so private. The blessing behind this is that I have become more and more comfortable with myself physically, mentally, and emotionally. At the beginning, you would never catch me dead on camera without make-up or a perfect hair style. Now, I don't even think twice about it... At the beginning, I would do take after take to make sure that my speaking was perfect or that I was even following a makeshift script that I had written beforehand. Now, I sometimes will film for 20 mins or so of me just making faces to react to my situations. I have become comfortable with showing my family on camera, my friends, my pets, etc. that I have rambled...what does this come down to? I think I kind of understand how these reality show people feel sometimes. I mean, aside from the fact that I think that my vlog is more reality than they would ever hope to experience....

This brings me to my goal for the rest of my vlog: be me and be real!


  1. I know what you mean...I edit my vlogs for a reason: So that my online and reality persona stay separate. I practice, I edit out the bad takes and edit them to be humorous and entertaining. At the times when I didn't have the means or equipment to edit my vlog, I would just shoot straight from where ever I was with my iPhone but it felt like people were actually getting a sense of me as a person, how I talked, my personality and sometimes It bugged me cause I couldn't edit out the nitpicky bits of me that I didn't like. But then I started to realize that that wasn't so bad. Sometimes people need to see who you really are and that makes you feel good and happy inside! Don't be afraid of you! :P